long time no see.

its been a long time since i last posted on my blog. 

hectic schedules=no time to blog.

since now, im sorta free from any assignments, i can blog.

life's been great so far i would say.

i've been so happy with the presence of my friends, family and boyfie.

partied. shopped. and broke.

that sounds cool isn't it.

anyways, i will be in kl as of 20th of december. can't wait.

although its a short holiday, what-evs. as long as i'll be back in time for new year.

soon, i gotta study for my test. i need to score to maintain my average to uni.

it's all good.

that's it for now.

xoxo

deedee

im back!!!

hey. im back. sorry for not updating it. been busy/lazy.

a lot of things happened. presence of mixed feelings. never ending exhaustion. work that has no ending.

so yea. that pretty much says it all.

raya is this SUNDAY! im damn sad. i have freaking exam when everyone is enjoying their raya celebration.
well, what to do. that's life. move on. live with it.

i just dont know why i keep on talking about nothing in particular. pretty much crapping throughout everything.

i love everyone. i love my friends and family. i love my boyfriend. i love my food. i love me. i love college. i love my house. i love my everything.

i miss everyone!

i want to do everything but why am i not capable of doing it.

i must have confidence and spirit and effort too.

i have nothing to say now. as i am so freaking sleepy.

xx

-deedee-

ILY.

i miss you.

i love you.

i need you.

but i feel like i'm the only one who's experiencing it.

i feel empty. 

we didn't even....................

i am so heartbroken. 

sad.

i'm back! i've been pissed for past few days. reason? i don't even know. 

i've been depressed. i really have no answer to it. 

i need someone to be with me. apparently, i just don't have any and no one can understand me. 

i'm tired of all this. i just can't take it anymore. 

i really want to run away from everything and everyone. 

i just need some time to think about everything.. i think i should start isolating myself again to get to know myself before everyone else does and not me. 

i just want to shout and cry.

please. why i can't do it? 

my heart hurts. really badly. what can i do to ease the pain?

i am seriously in need of medication or some sort.

HELP ME! 

i really don't think anyone can help me in any way. 

i'm so alone.  ='(

so like i'm tired.

im like sick. but recovering. but my head is spinning like hell in a way that i cant explain it. 

but like i feel so.....................fucked! thats it. i dont know why i just cant seem to be bothered anymore. 

damn it. 

happy like madness.

today was alright. class was fun today for some reason i cant explain. 

watched public enemies just now! pretty good. should watch if any of u guys like action movie.

and its based on true story.

the guy was so sweet to the girlfriend. jealous to the max! 

other than than, im just loving FAIZ MAMING. 

i miss him like madness. 

well, thats about it. i wanna sleep now. got class at 9.30 am. 

dont even wanna be late again. 

and i miss my family and friends back home. 

and guys, yes. ive updated. 

i want you guys to know ma what im doing. 

als, we so need to talk if you're reading this. i went on skype but i didnt get ur request though.

hope to hear from you soon.

well, thats all. 

xoxo,deedee

p/s: i love FAIZ MAMING.

whataday?

well, well. let's see. what has been going on? 

nothing much. i'm just freaking tired. till i dont know what to say. 

the cookies i baked yesterday was good. proud to the max at myself. 

not to brag or anything but its true. 

i had accounting class and business computing today. it was good and i went back at like 4 pm.

but i slept for like 20 mins during acc class. i felt bad ever since. 

but she understands me. so its okay.

like everyday routine. i have my pit stops before i actually go to my own house. 

its either stopping at college square or arrow. sometimes both in a day. 

so yea. cool right? i dont think so. but its good that i get to see my friends and all. 

becaause of them, i like melbourne. =D

no friends = no life. 

so yea.

i just have no idea what else to say.

im just confused with myself. 

p/s : i do love u. but why ur making me to not love you.